Hey there, if anyone is reading this, My name is Finel (He/They) and this is my blog.
I used to be active on neocities, technically I still am given the fact this is currently updating on there, but for months my site has been dormant.
The indie web served both a creative outlet and a social space for me, so with the combination of becoming a very busy art student and becoming wary of online spaces as a jew, I withdrew our of a lot of communities, including the more social parts of neocities.
I return to my site because I do in fact crave this little space of my own online, I simplified my code, basically rebuilt it, and hopefully it will be both better for any viewer and easier for me to update. Heck it’s even (mostly) mobile friendly this time!
I’ve been reading a friend’s blog for a while, and a few posts ago he talked about “why blogs”, me, being an annoying skeptic, jumped into his dms to discuss the topic. And after a talk the idea of opening a blog did plant itself in my head.
A few months later a different friend and I talked about car movie franchises and I remember I have a semi-essay about fast and furious: crossroads, and I could just link the page to my friend if he wants to read my thoughts on the thing. That’s when it clicked for me , the first friend described using the blog as a way to share info with friends when needed, and here it was, happening in front of my eyes if not a little to the left.
So opening a blog it is. The idea of no one seeing what I write did bring me doubts, it still does. I’m so used to being an artist online (tm), and I’m so used to the idea of being presentable for an audience, and that everything I personally do should have some sort of quantifiable worth. This is a stupid mindset but a mindset my brain runs through without me wanting it to, so watch me beat it with a stick in the form of writing blog posts that at most will be read by one individual.
I like to rumble, might as well rumble with structure, for easy access later, just in case.
What can you do expect from me here?
You’ll hear about stuff I like, probably wrestling, probably trans Jewish bands, and most importantly I will soon write about “the stray shopping cart of earth North America- a guide to field identification”, it’s an underrated book and I need to talk about it.
You might hear about my experience as an art student, I have things to say about being in an art uni that is weirdly pro-ai. And about learning a web designing course where they only taught us how to use wix.
Listen, the only nonfiction writing I did on my site is the semi-essay mentioned before called “How one of the lowest rated games of 2020 also has the only queer rep in the Fast and Furious series”, which contained a lot of my personal experience with the game fast and furious: crossroads, in a way it’s a sort of a blog by itself (a very long blog post). I also think that title (and the writing I did) kinda encapsulates me as a person, I am the kind of guy who looks at something silly and decide that it actually deserves analysis. And instead of talking a friend’s ear off on the phone about it, maybe it’s time to fill some server space.